Well hello! I woke up this morning thinking on this verse Psalm 118:24 This is the day the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it! I find myself so many times taking the days for granted. I either get too caught up in my to do lists or the days just seem to fly by and before I know it is time to go to bed! I am not going to lie being a mom, full-time worker, and wife is hard work! I am the kind of mom that feels very guilty for leaving Copelyn on my off days to go try to do anything for myself. I haven't conquered this yet but it is a work in progress. And this is so bad but when I work my 12 hour shifts when I come home and she is sleeping I take her out of her crib and put her in bed to snuggle with me! Such a bad habit but it makes my heart feel a little better to even get a chance to snuggle her and hold her close! Tonight, which is my night off, we are headed to a wedding! I am super excited but the anxiety has set in and the guilt is in my heart about leaving my sweet girl! I feel like since I work full time the days I am off I need to spend fully devoted to her! Does any other moms feel this way!? But like I said I woke up this morning with Psalm 118 on my heart and I am going to live that out today.
Sweet Copelyn aka Co-co Puff is now 8 months old! I say this every month but where did the time go!? She is moving like crazy! Pulling up on everything, and crawling everywhere! She is so fast! I turn my head for one second and next thing I know she is in the trash or in my closet. Her favorite places are the refrigerator and pantry. We are done nursing. Sad. But we made it eight months!! She is eating three meals a day and still taking her bottles. She still wakes up once a night for a bottle. Any advice on this!? I forgot what it was like to sleep through the night. She is absolutely so much fun! She is the happiest child! She rarely cries and she is generally always smiling! Love her! Last month, we took her in for her second flu-shot. Ever since her first flu-shot (not saying this is what caused it!) Copelyn started making a shaking movement with her head and shrugging her shoulders randomly. She would stop what she was doing but then continue playing after she was done with the movement. It seemed to me like a normal baby movement or maybe even a tic so I wasn't too concerned. We brought it up to the pediatrician and right away she advised us to see a pediatric neurologist. This took me by surprise because I honestly didn't think it was anything. This was torture for me. I wondered and worried (just so you know worry is a sin! God has Copelyn's whole life in his hands and I knew that but it is so hard to not worry about your own child) about the worst possible scenarios. Well, we met with the pediatric neurologist. I was expecting them to just send us home and say it was normal. Sure enough, they didn't say that. They wanted to run tests on my sweet little one. At first, they wanted to do a long EEG with a sedated MRI. This did not sit well in my stomach. For whatever reason Scott and I never felt at peace with this decision. We met with another neurologist for a second opinion and he said we could do the EEG and from those results we could then decide on the MRI. His biggest concern was that she wouldn't make the movement during the EEG so we would not be able to tell what kind of activity it was causing. He warned us the EEG doesn't hurt but most kids scream because it is uncomfortable and they don't like wires being glued to their head. We prayed hard that Copelyn would make the movement during the EEG. We got to the day of the test and Copelyn was in a great mood. They took us back to this little room. I was more nervous than Copelyn! We had to hold Copelyn down while they attached everything. And PRAISE JESUS she did not cry once! She actually smiled and laughed. She thought it was funny that we were holding her down! Then they started the test. With five minutes remaining Copelyn made the movement! Hallelujah! I just received the results two days ago and her EEG was clear. They call her movement shuttering and she should grow out of it. We just have to monitor it for a while. She will continue to see the neuro for check-ups until no reported shuttering occurs again! So Copelyn gave me a little scare these past few weeks but the biggest lesson I took from this is life is messy and it might get hard but God has each of my days and my families days planned out. He has the whole wide world in his hands. Thank you Jesus for that!
