After years of reading all my friends blogs, I am taking the plunge and starting one of our own. We have so many exciting events about to happen in our life that I wanted to share with our closest friends. Our relationship proves that if you trust God and give him control; God will bless you tremendously and the best part is he loves you unconditionally. We have been incredibly blessed with great love, family, and friends. We are about to step onto the journey of marriage on May 15! I can not believe it is finally here ! We are now 45 days away! It is becoming a reality that I am about to marry my best friend and one true love.
Well, I thought I would give you a wedding update but first I want to share with you a fun story. We had our first relaxing weekend this past weekend. This was a first for us since January because of my school, wedding showers, and other friends weddings. Scott got to pick the date on Saturday. Of course he picked a hike in the woods at Fort Yargo. For those of you who don't know me, I am scared to death of bears and coyotes so this was an adventure for me. When we got to the visitor center for our passes I asked the receptionist if the park was safe. She looked at me with a strange look and replied, "Oh yes, the bikers on the trails yield to all of our hikers so don't worry you won't get run over." Scott looked at her with a grin because he knew he was about to make me look silly. He told her I was scared of bears and coyotes. She laughed at me! And replied, "Honey, there are no bears in South Georgia." I was pretty embarrassed! haha Needless to say, I won't be making my fear known in South Georgia anymore.
To make a long story short, we got lost in the woods that day! We were on a 12 mile trail with just Scott, me, and nature. We had no food or water. For a while, I felt helpless and scared. One because I had not eaten all day and two even though the lady said there were no bears I was convinced one would wander down from North Georgia just to say hello to me that day. My sweet fiance though remained really calm, joking and laughing, and led us back to our car safely. It was almost as though God got us lost. We needed some quality time reflecting and praying. God gave us 4 good hours of this and once again showed me if I trust him he will keep me safe.
This past Sunday Scott and I met with our photographer, wedding planner, florist, and DJ. It was 7 hours of wedding planning! It was stressful and overwhelming for me. I can not imagine what it was for Scott. It was funny though because I was going to go by myself and that morning after church Scott asked me if he was invited. I said OF COURSE, I honestly did not think he would want to go talk about flowers, picture poses, napkins, place settings, and etc. Much to my surprise he really did want to go! For all you guys reading though, he did bring his blackberry so he could watch the games on his phone! I can never take that man away from his sports!
We are getting so close. It is really amazing that our 18 month engagement is coming to an end. It has been extremely hard planning a wedding for 18 months and being in school. I try to not let my mind wander too much but the excitement sometimes overwhelms me.
Scott and I learned so much over these past 18 months. God has provided for us greatly in all aspects of life. We have formed many new friendships and we feel extremely fortunate to have these people in our lives. For me, I have conquered a flaw that hindered my relationship with Scott and God for a while.
Like many women, I battled my inner core of insecurity for a long time. It was not until some hard conversations with God and some self revelation that I realized I was the only one hurting myself by being insecure. I always put other people before myself because I believed if everyone else was happy I would be happy too! I was easily offended, easily hurt, and easily let down. I watched as other people suffered with this as well and my heart broke for them. It is not a fun thing to deal with as a woman. I found it hard to trust people and let people in. I found so many people I thought highly of lying to me. I did not understand how people who had a relationship with Jesus could lie about things that were so small. I would let it ruin my days. Then, as I began to hold a grudge God stopped me and reminded me once again that Jesus Christ died for my sins and he died for other peoples sins too. There sins are no greater than my sins so rather than dwell on them hurting me I needed to focus on me. Sometimes you just need a good reminder. I learned to love regardless of no matter what the circumstance.
My insecurity decided to show up a lot with this wedding stuff. I hear from so many women that Weddings Make People Crazy! I never believed it but I do see it now. Every girl dreams of their big day being perfect. I had this picture of it in my mind and it always seemed my ideas up to someone elses did not match up. People I was close to made my ideas feel so small. Finally, I have broken free. I have realized that it doesn't matter what other people think, it only matters what God thinks of me. So, for you women who feel insecure I would recommend reading the book "So Long Insecurity" by Beth Moore. She is awesome and she puts everything in perspective for you. Believe it or not, everyone suffers with some form of insecurity! Well, that being said I hoped my little testimony helps you in some way!
Hope you enjoy reading our blog as we step into marriage together!
I loved Green too so my wonderful wedding planner Denise Myers from TruSo Weddings found a way to incorporate it into the mix! You can visit her website at www.trusoweddings.com The picture at the very top just shows the yellow and blue we are focusing on. I had to incorporate the latte brown so we decided to make the bridesmaid's dress brown! The picture of the dress is the bridesmaid dresses I chose.
Our reception will be held at the Carl House. My sister in law Payton and brother in law Mike got married there almost 5 years ago so it is a special place for us. She had told me about it so we decided to go look. Scott immediately wanted to go with the Carl House. I wanted to be indecisive for a while and make sure this was the best option for us. It took me three months but I finally realized no where else we looked compared to the Carl House for us.
