Words for my Little Girl

So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal. For we know that if the tent that is our earthly home is destroyed, we have a building from God, a house not made with hands, eternal in the heavens. For in this tent we groan, longing to put on our heavenly dwelling, if indeed by putting it on we may not be found naked. For while we are still in this tent, we groan, being burdened—not that we would be unclothed, but that we would be further clothed, so that what is mortal may be swallowed up by life. He who has prepared us for this very thing is God, who has given us the Spirit as a guarantee. So we are always of good courage. We know that while we are at home
in the body we are away from the Lord, for we walk by faith, not by sight. Yes, we are of good courage, and we would rather be away from the body and at home with the Lord. So whether we are at home or away, we make it our aim to please him.
- 2 Corinthians 4:16 - 5:9

I have been quite emotional lately. I guess when you are 23 1/2 weeks pregnant you have a lot of hormones raging! If you ever see me on 85 in the morning on my 2 hour commute, just don't pay any attention to the tears strolling down my face or the mountain of tissues next to me. I don't cry because I am sad...I cry because I am so happy. Losing a sweet baby has made me hold tight to what I do have now and not pay much attention to the material things of this world. I guess you could say my world got shaken back into perspective. I am so in love with my husband. I love him more and more every single day. He loves me so well and I am so grateful for that. He never complains...he just aims to love me fully. Each and every morning he makes me coffee and an egg mcmuffin (they are so much better than panera's!). He scrubs the shower like no one I have ever seen! Ahh I love the smell of bleach and a clean bathroom. I love how he is so into football & every single game that comes on the TV but he will give it up in an instant for a walk or a dinner date with me. We fight ocassionally but through each and every disagreement I love him more because of his willingness to fight for me and never give up. I love the dad he is to Copelyn. I am so excited for her that she has a daddy that will love her so incredibly much! And even more excited that she has a heavenly father who loves her more than her daddy and I will ever know.

I love Copelyn so much as well! With every kick, I fall in love even more. I can't wait to kiss her little face, toes, and hands in February. I have found myself in prayer a whole lot more lately. On my knees praising Jesus. I pray for Copelyn's heart mostly. I want her to love Jesus more than anything. I want her to have a heart for other people. I want to protect her heart from suffering. I know as her mother I have no control over these things. I can feed her soul with verses from the Bible but God has to do the rest. Even though she is my daughter, she is first and foremost a child of God. He has all of her days planned out. He knows the second she will be born and the second she will go to heaven to be with him & live eternally. He knows every hair on her head, every crease in her skin, and what all of her insecurities will be. He knows EVERYTHING! It will take me a lifetime to learn everything God knows about Copelyn.

There is a song that comes to mind today..Safe by Phil Wickham. I let Copelyn listen to it daily. They say she can hear everything going on. I want her to know she will be Safe in God's arms. He will protect her even when everything is falling a part. This has been so true of my life. My goodness have we been through some storms. God has always kept me safe though. Even on days that seemed unbearable he provided an unending peace in my heart. I will never be alone with him. He has the whole world in his hands including my little world. Isn't that wonderful news?